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It's Sin Sien's birthday! It has been two years since we last meet. Change a lot yea =)
pss: ccl, i was really not free that night ^^"
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At Paulus's house. Delicacy from Barney.
Merry Christmas ^^
Will be missing you all ^^
I dunno what type of this sleep disorder is...but i know, i know this is a sleep disorder. I experienced it since Form 3.
The moment i fall asleep or asleep for just a short while, i will feel numb mostly upper part of the body and feel something press on my chest and neck. At this moment, i so wanna wake up , but i couldn't because it is so hard to open my eyes or move. Instead i end up having imagination that i had woke up and look for mama's or sister's help. In the imagination, i asked mama or sis to wake me up ^^"
Everytime i undergo this, i desperately wish that someone will *knock* me up or simply touch me. I know i wont die but sometimes the "strangle on my throat" is so torturing which let me think that i am really going to die.
And recently...sob...i will hear strange sound (screaming, buzzing) right beside my ear which becoming louder and louder until my mind will shout for help. I can even see some images in the room. Well, i know both of this is juz a hallucination.
Ah, then after that i awake, feel real sleepy, asleep again and it happened again. Finally, huh...awake and i dare not sleep again. I force the sleepy-me to get up and here i am blogging..hee. Oh ya, i also realised i was short of breath. Or, perhaps it is because breathing problems that make me felt numb and being pressed? But i know sometimes i can breath.
There are ppl say is "gui3 ya1 chuang2"...means ghost pressing on body. From what i heard, some people do experienced it before.
A friend of mine experienced this kind of disorder too. Her symtoms is almost similar with mine but dun hav strange sound n image. She consume medicine. The doctor said she has unconsious stress...emm.. means she has stress but she dunno she has. But i said, " i dun feel stress"...ah, since it was UNconsious stress, so i thought maybe i was stress due to school thingy or STPM exam.
But...but STPM was just over! I am so very the happy and i was attacked by sleep disorder ?? Sleep problems cause more than just sleepiness – a lack of quality sleep can
Oh my god, i am going to be blur and stupid!
cause accidents, affect your relationships, health, and mental prowess; and make
you feel generally “disconnected” from the world.
So, right now... i am going to google for tis disorder.
